As a Christian born and raised in the church…I get frustrated sometimes because simply put, I never knew life without Christ and the feeling of hopelessness and alone-ness that comes from the search for purpose. I find myself getting jealous sometimes of people who had life changing experiences where they were lost and confused, hopeless and alone and then encountered the love of Christ and now they have a new hope. They are no longer alone and the weight of the world is lifted and the search for the meaning of life is finally over. They are a new person…
I find myself feeling depressed about this from time to time as if it were a bad thing! Ha…what a messed up way of thinking. Bottom line is that I don’t ever want to feel that emptiness and hopelessness.
However, that being said…sometimes I feel lost in my foundness…
I feel alone in my fellowship.
I feel confused in my clarity.
It’s frustrating. Downright aggravating at times. I have nothing to compare my life with Christ to. I don’t have a before and after, at least not one I can remember! I just have an after. Life after Christ. Sometimes I yearn for the opportunity to feel the pain people without Jesus feel. I hear the stories, but I can’t relate. I’ve always been free in Christ. Although I’ve done stupid stuff and strayed from the path…I’ve never lived a life without Jesus.
I don’t EVER want to live a life without Jesus because with Him I don’t fear death. I have my purpose, but I want to ask anyone who is reading this…If you lived without Jesus and then encountered Him giving your life to Him…I’d love to hear your story. I’d love to hear what your life was like without Him and how it’s different now that He pulled you out. I would love for you to paint me a picture in as much detail as you’d like.
If you are reading this and you don’t know Jesus…I challenge you to give Him a shot. Check Him out and find out what true love is about. I am a very very blessed man. I don’t take my blessings for granted anymore and I know that every blessing I have is by the grace of Jesus.
If you do know Jesus…then share your story about the transformation that took place when you let Jesus into your life. I know I’d love to hear it and I’m sure others would to.
Blessings to you and yours, and remember…don’t take your blessings for granted. It can be maddening, but be grateful for all your blessings.